Mohegan567

While I frequently check my messages here, the best place to find me is either on Tumblr or Twitter. I'll provide the links in this journal:

Twitter: twitter.com/HeijnenCeline

Tumblr: mohegan567.tumblr.com/

I’ll have to decide on prices and what not. Maybe do a little research about it. How much I will ask for a sketch or a fully colored character + background. Anyone interested in them?

I officially am a Master of arts now! Last week I got my Master diploma for animation! I'm so happy and relieved! But now comes the hard part! Finding a job! Dun dun dun..... I have my eyes set on a company right around the corner of our street. It's a merchandise company that also specializes in art concepts and character design. I don't think I will be that lucky with getting a job on the first try, but there's always a chance.

Wow, my last journal is two years old and very depressing to read back. But I'm glad to say that after two years a lot has changed for the better. 

First of all I moved in with my boyfriend about a week ago. The house is lovely, big and not too far away from my family. It's weird to not live with my mother and sister anymore, but slowly I'm getting used to it. It's also really weird living without a dog! I miss that big fluffball! I'll be seeing them all again tonight for a Christmas dinner and I'm looking forward to it. We are planning to adopt two kittens somewhere in the distant future, my bf is a big cat lover and I never owned one, but I can't wait to have another pet. Houses are way too empty without a fuzzy companion.

As for my dad and me, it was a long and tough journey, but I'm happy to say that we mended our relationship. I also met the woman with who he cheated with. My mother and me had a really difficult conversation seperatly with them. Lets just say that karma has been a bitch to both of them and life wasn't very happy for them. They had a lot of regrets with the pain they caused us and I could tell they really meant it. I've managed to put it beside me. While she and I probably won't be the best of buds, we can talk normally to eachother now and the hate and anger I felt has finally gone. It's still a very weird situation to see my parents with new partners, but both look more happy now and I guess that's what matters the most. My dad still isn't back to his old self, he's full of regret with what he has done, but I'm very glad to have him back in my life.

And last but not least, next month I will, hopefully, be graduating for my Master Diploma in animation. I'm thinking of sending my short film 'Greener Pastures' to festivals. If that won't happen, I'll be posting it online and I'll provide a link to the film. I must say that I'm pretty proud of it. Took me 2 and a half years to finish the darn thing! 

I'm mostly active on Tumblr, but I kinda missed DA. Not sure if many people are still following me, but here's to a new year

Wow, my last journal was so positive.... But in 2 months time my life has been turned upside down.

Not only has it been a shitty year for celebs, it’s been a shitty time for my personal life as well. Tomorrow my mum and dad will sign their divorce papers after 34 years of marriage and a relationship of 41 years. The reason? My dad has been cheating on my mum for the past two years and has been living together with this bimbo for over a month now….

The bad things outweigh the good stuff. I graduated for my Bachelor in Animation and started dating a wonderful guy. Next month we’ll be together for a year. He’s been sticking with me through the good AND bad times and I’m already daydreaming of living together and in a couple of years starting a family of my own (I know him for 5 years in total, so I’m not just relying on butterflies in my stomach and I want to be financially independant. We both talked about it. I think my decisions through, unlike my dad…)

D-day was 2 months ago. I returned from a short vacation with my bf and my mum broke the news to me. I knew my parents had some trouble with their marriage, but I never thought my dad would be capable of infidelity! He admitted he was being very naive of the situation, thinking we would accept this new witch of his and be on friendly terms with her. Yeah dad, I thought you were smarter than that…

He’s now in his new home being close to a burnout and is becoming sick with the stress of the whole situation and has taken in sick days from work because he can't concentrate (He will be visiting a psychologist at the beginning of the new year.). My sweet mother has become a vengeful, cynical woman and almost daily falls into my arms crying and making me even more angry at my dad. I called him some very vile things, which I do not regret. We were one of the closest family you could ever imagine and he threw it all away for some good conversations and a cheap piece of ass. And still he is willing to go through with it.

I sent the other woman a very mean mail, spewing all the hate I felt for her and what she did to our family and apparently I hit a nerve. My dad told us her backstory, something she has not even told her very own children (Who are around my age, 26 years.) She was raped by her own father and she is terrified I will tell her children about it, she knows I know her story and was angry at my dad for betraying her trust (HA, go figure…) Dad got angry, gave me a call and told me to man up and not hide behind emails, but confront her face to face. Called it a very low move of me. I told him ‘Oh, just like you did?’

He even told me to leave her kids out of it. When he said that I screamed at him, saying he had no trouble throwing me and my sister in this shitstorm of his. His very own flesh and blood. At that moment I knew my dad had lost his mind and was no longer the father who raised me. And being a daddy’s girl as a kid, that was the hardest thing that has ever happened to me.

This new bitch, I mean ‘woman,’ of his has a history of violence. She is not afraid to get into fights and even said she would punch my mum if she ever dared to touch her. The first punch she would deserve, but the second one my mum would be floored, so she said. In my email I made sure to let her know that if she ever laid a finger on my mum, I would beat her into a bloody pulp. She is also secretive and hates parties, flowers, friends, so I have been told etc. Sounds like a real prize winner… The total opposite of my mother and (atleast that’s what I thought) my dad. No one in my family has ever gotten physical, but now I daydream almost ever day about revenge and making her feel just as bad as I am feeling now.

My dad has been desperate to keep in contact with me. When he picked up his stuff from the house, he totally panicked when he couldn't find a perfume I once gave him as a present. I heard my mother say that the most painful thing to him is not the divorce, but losing me as a daughter because I refuse contact. My sister still visits him and keeps in contact. I don’t want anything to do with vile, backstabbing persons. They deliberately tried to make a life for themselves to be together. She applied for a job close to my home town and my dad had been searching for a house not too far away from us, because he wants to stay close to his kids. This was all before he told us he had an affair. 

I just don’t get it…. My dad was a wonderful father to me in the 26 years I have been around and he was always there for me. But he has completely changed into a sniveling, selfish loser. I mean, if I can’t even trust my dad, who can I trust?